I have been so upset lately. I have been doing so well with the way I eat at work and then the second I get home I start to binge. Some days it happens while I am cooking, other days after dinner and some days it's right before bed.
It's crazy! How can I feel great all day long and then go home and eat everything in sight. I don't even think about food while I am working. I force myself to eat lunch on some days because I am not always hungry.
All I know is that I am miserable. I just told my husband that it isn't the fact that I gained weight or how I look that is bothering me. It's the fact that I am out of control with my eating. I always feel so guilty when I go to bed because I ate things that I shouldn't have.
It really has been stressing me out. I feel so good and then around 6pm I start to feel exhausted, the kids start whining and hanging on me, I have to cook dinner, clean up, do laundry and some days we add soccer into the mix and then I just fall apart. I eat whatever I can find.
I know it seems like going to bed when I get tired would be an easy solution. Unfortunately, that is just not possible. There is no way to fit my whole day into a 7am to 7pm time period. I would love that but it just isn't going to happen. I just don't know what to do.
My whole eating issue seems to stem from being too tired. I feel great and happy and don't even care about eating until I get too tired to hold my head up and then I can't stop eating. I really need to fix this problem or I am going to go crazy! Either that or I am going to gain all of my weight back.
At least I know what is causing my problem. Now I just need to find the solution.