Well this post just might be harder to write then my first post almost two years ago. As many of you know I haven't posted in a few weeks. I have missed writing on here very much but mostly I missed all of your kind words and support. :) Thank you to everyone who has written me emails, sent me facebook messages and also left me comments on my blog while I was away. Your encouragement means more to me then you will ever know.
Today marks a new day in my weight loss journey. The day I admit to all of you that I have fallen off track big time and gained more weight then I ever thought I would let myself do.
I have been really struggling with my weight, my eating habits and life in general since this past September. I think part of my problem may be caused by the big changes in my life since then. The added stress, extra responsibility and lack of sleep have really not been working for me. I stopped writing the past few weeks because I knew that I needed to get my life reorganized before I could get my weight loss back on track.
As of today I am working about 30 hours a week as our local YMCA's Sports Coordinator. God has really blessed me with a job where I can make some much needed money and still be a stay at home Mom. I couldn't have asked for a more perfect job. Isn't it funny how I would have never imagined myself in a million years doing this job yet now that I am doing it I absolutely love it and could not have picked a more perfect job myself. Isn't it funny how what we want is sometimes so much different then what God wants. If only we would realize that God's will is perfect and we just need to wait for His perfect timing. God has a plan for me in this job and I see it every day. I love that I am able to show God's love to everyone that I come in contact with in my new job. This job has truly been a blessing.
I decided this morning that I was going to do it! I weighed myself for the first time in a long time and decided to share it with you. Not just for my own accountability but also that all of you can see how real I am. I am just as human as the rest of you. I have my ups and downs and this is just another one that I have to deal with. Life threw me for a loop and I had to catch up with it before I could get everything back on track.
When I stepped on the scale this morning I weighed 181.2 pounds. This means I gained 15.2 pounds since Aug. 2010. Today I weight almost as much as I did a year ago. Wow, it's crazy how time flies. This number is very upsetting to me because I know how hard I worked to get to my lowest weight and now I have to do it all over again. I am realizing that this is just another stepping stone in my journey. No one wants to gain weight back but I am pretty sure most of us have done it at one point or another.
I am real and this is my life and this is why I am sharing it with you. It is slightly embarrassing but if I can help just one person by sharing the truth then it is worth it.
I am ready to get my eating habits and exercise habits back on track. I don't like the way I look or feel and I am now ready to put out the effort it is going to take me to get back to where I want to be. I know that once I start eating healthier and exercising again I will feel better inside and out.
So who is with me???
Let's take back control of what we are putting in our mouths and what we are doing with our bodies. The only real secret to losing weight is to eat healthier and exercise more. Let the games begin!!!!!!!