Is this really possible? When I started my weight loss journey in Jan. of 2009 I was not a big fan of ice cream. I have always liked it but for the most part ice cream in our house gets eaten out of once and then we throw it away a few months later (when it is freezer burned). Up until a few weeks ago it has always been a "Safe Food" to have in my house. What I mean when I say "Safe Food" is that I won't binge on it when I am stressed or tired. For instance, Cupcakes are not a "Safe Food" in my house but Rice Cakes are a "Safe Food". ;)
A few weeks ago my husband brought home tons of awesome ice cream and all of the sudden I am addicted. Does that really happy? Is it possible to go from not really caring about a food all of your life and then all of the sudden you can't get enough of it? You crave it, can't sleep at night because all you can think about is ice cream. I actually sat on the couch last night with a carton of Oreo cookie ice cream and a spoon. Yep, I really did it! I ate it out of the carton with a spoon. Not only that but I finished off the carton. This is something that I never even thought of doing, ever!
It is the most horrible feeling. I almost feel like I am back at day 1 with my addiction to chocolate or cupcakes. Honestly, I'm not quite sure what to do. It's been so long since I have felt this way about food. Don't get me wrong. I still love food but this is like a sick love for food!
I think the only answer for me is to not have it in the house. I know this has worked for me in the past and I'm sure it will again. I just hate having to crave something so badly. It brings back so many memories from the past year and a half. I guess I just hate to admit that I am going to have to deal with this forever. Some days are easier then others but this ice cream thing has just really thrown me for a loop.
My ice cream binges are just another step in my journey. A journey that never seems to get dull. :) I'm just hoping that this ice cream thing isn't a hereditary problem that kicks in at the age of 30. I'm not joking! My family has a love for ice cream. My Mimi (Grandmother) had a love for it like you would not believe. You probably think I am exaggerating but I'm really not. She could out eat anyone without even knowing that she was doing it. Boy do I miss those days.
My Mimi died at the age of 58 from ovarian cancer. To say she was an amazing Grandmother would not do her justice. She was my best friend and it has been 11 years since she died but sometimes it seems like just yesterday that she was here. This one is for you, MIMI!!! I wish you were here to eat a big bowl of ice cream with. My favorite quote from my Mimi, "Maybe I could eat just one more scoop of vanilla ice cream with a little hot fudge!" , after eating an entire 6 scoop banana split. Please pray it's not hereditary. ;) Love Ya, Mim!