Wednesday, December 30, 2009
I'm sure by the title of this post you have already guessed my secret. I have a disease called Fibromyalgia. If you haven't ever heard of Fibromyalgia here is the definition from the Mayo Clinic "Fibromyalgia is a chronic condition characterized by widespread pain in your muscles, ligaments and tendons, as well as fatigue and multiple tender points — places on your body where slight pressure causes pain.
Fibromyalgia occurs in about 2 percent of the population in the United States. Women are much more likely to develop the disorder than are men, and the risk of fibromyalgia increases with age. Fibromyalgia symptoms often begin after a physical or emotional trauma, but in many cases there appears to be no triggering event. "
I was diagnosed in December or 2005 when I was 25 years old and have suffered with it ever since. It is a horrible, painful disease and I hate the fact that I have to live with it for the rest of my life. What I hate even more is that it not only effects me but it effects my whole family. My husband and children suffer because I can't do things that I should be able to because of my pain or fatigue. I try to prevent this from happening at all costs. That is why I seem to have so many flair ups. I am determined to not let my family suffer from this disease. I am going to fight it at all costs because my kids deserve to have a great childhood. Not one where they have to worry about how their Mother is feeling.
You are probably wondering why I would keep this a secret. Well, like I said earlier I don't want to pity myself. The second I start to pity myself and act like I have a disease I start to feel depressed and even more pain and fatigue. If I fight it and pretend that I am not any different I can function so much better. I know it sounds crazy but I have done both and pretending I am normal seems to work best. I can't stand being depressed and this disease causes me to fight every day to not fall into that path.
For months I have felt like I should share a little about my disease because I know that there are so many others that suffer from the same thing and maybe we can do this together.
Weight loss isn't easy and it definitely isn't easy when you have Fibromyalgia. I will give you a few reason why:
1. Sometimes it is so hard to move let alone exercise because of the pain.
2. Fatigue and lack of sleep from Fibromyalgia makes it so hard to not have a "tired binge".
3. Fighting the depression that comes along with Fibromyalgia makes it hard to not overeat. When I am depressed I want to eat. Because I am determined to not get depressed and not take meds for it I sometimes find myself falling into it and wanting to eat. Luckily I am able to pull myself out of it and get back to eating healthy but for some people it is a lot harder.
4. Medication: This is the one that I struggle with the most. I take the medication Lyrica. Unfortunately a side effect is weight gain from an increased appetite.
I have been on Lyrica for about 2 1/2 years (minus pregnancy and breast feeding time). When I first started taking Fibromyalgia I gained about 25 pounds very quickly. I was working a stressful job and love to eat so I didn't think much of it until my Rhuematoligist told me that I gained that weight to quickly for it to be normal weight gain. That is when she told me that a side effect of Lyrica is weight gain from an increase in appetite. I guess I should have read the label. After I had my daughter I decided to go back on the medicine because I couldn't handle the pain without it. I knew the side effects but I didn't know what else to do. At that time the only FDA Approved med was Lyrica. I ended up gaining about 15 pounds this time. This was before I started my weight loss journey.
About 4 months ago my Lyrica seemed to have stopped working. My Rheumatoligist decided to double my Lyrica dose. As you can see by my weight loss in the past few months this has been a major struggle for me. I just want to eat all of the time. It is awful. Something that I am still fighting.
My Rheumatologist has just decided to switch my medication to Cymbalta instead of Lyrica because the Lyrica seems to not be helping with the pain and Fatigue anymore. I am really excited to try something new. When I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia we had no FDA Approved drugs to take for it. I started out taking a pain killer that was awesome at first and then I eventually got addicted to it. This is why I have sworn off pain killers for the rest of my life. I get addicted to easily and coming off something you are addicted to is the hardest thing to do. Now we have three FDA approved meds. Lyrica, Cymbalta and Salvella. The last two I think became approved sometime this year.
I will start the Cymbalta probably sometime next week and I can't wait to see if it helps with my pain and fatigue. That would be awesome! I don't remember what is like to live with out pain but I would love to experience it again. I can't say that I am not excited about the fact that Cymbalta does not have a side effect of increased appetite. It actually has a possible side effect of decreased appetite. I have never had a decreased appetite in my life. :) So it will be very interesting to see if I have that side effect. But most importantly I want to get rid of the pain.
I hope I didn't ramble on to much about this subject. I just wanted to share with all of you some of my struggles so you can understand my whole story. I hope I have helped some of you by sharing with my struggles with Fibromyalgia. If anyone has questions I would love to try to answer them and if anyone has any advice I would love to hear it.
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Monday, December 28, 2009
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Sunday, December 20, 2009
I can't wait to start saving money by keeping my fridge clean!
My Clean Freezer
Saturday, December 19, 2009
(My Grandmother is probably rolling over in her grave as I am posting these pictures. She was a clean freak and as much as I would love to be I don't have time to be. I'm not a dirty person. I am just real. I have two small kids that come first and I am a work from home mom. Sometimes everything else gets put on hold. Like my fridge unfortunately. Please remember this when you look at the pictures. :) )
If you are anything like me you go in the fridge to cook dinner and move things around a little until you find what you are looking for. Imagine not having to move things around. Imagine just looking in your fridge and being able to spot everything that is in there with just a glance. That would be a dream come true for me.
Every week I get so mad at myself because I find the leftover watermelon from two weeks ago or some leftover rice that we could have had with dinner a few night ago. I always seem to be wasting something. It is very aggravating. Imagine how much money I could save if I would have used that package of 3 tomatoes and the head of lettuce before they went bad.
My challenge for the day is to clean out my fridge and freezer. That means take everything out, scrub every surface of the fridge and freezer, throw out anything that is outdated or obviously has gone bad, and rearrange everything else in so that I know where it is when I need it.
If you are still wondering how you can save money by cleaning out your fridge. Think about how many bottles of half eaten salad dressing you throw away each year. Usually because you can't find it until it is expired of course. Think about how many times you buy ketchup because you think you are out of it and come to find out you have three half used bottles in the back of the fridge. How about the number or half eaten salsa, relish and pickle jars you throw away each year. If you are like me several times a year you probably throw out the old freezer burned half eaten ice cream that got hidden in the back of the freezer. Imagine if you could see it and eat it when it is still good instead of having to buy more. Just yesterday my husband bought himself a new bottle of light ranch salad dressing because he thought we didn't have any. Here it was way back in the back of the fridge on it's side. Now we have two almost full bottles and I'm sure one will expire before my husband uses it. My list could seriously go on and on.
Having a cluttered fridge can cost you possibly a few hundred dollars a year. Please join with me on this Challenge of keeping our fridge clean and saving money at the same time.
Meet My Fridge:
You are probably wondering what my huge mistake was. I'm sure you have already figured out it involves food. Well, all day yesterday I ate just about everything I could get my hands on. Ok, maybe it wasn't that bad but what I ate was so high in fat that it may as well have been that bad. I skipped breakfast. Ate a burger with bacon and cheese and broccoli salad for lunch and half of a piece of German Chocolate cake for dessert. Then I ate about a dozen (small) chocolate chip cookies throughout the day. Then I ate a McFish sandwich from McDonald's for dinner. It isn't that I ate a ton of food it was that I made really poor choices in what I ate.
My daughters making Christmas Cookies yesterday!
On the up side I decided to start my day off right this morning. I didn't take the cough medicine with codeine last night and I feel much better. I woke up and had a cup of hot tea and two pieces of reduced fat toast w/ 2 teaspoons of peanut butter. It was a good start to a good day. I plan to eat well all day even when I am feeling stressed.
It is going to snow today so I plan to stay home and enjoy being able to relax. I am so excited because I just got this new cookbook in the mail that I will be reviewing on the site. I can't wait to read it and then post it for all of you to see. There might even be a giveaway involved. :0).
What do you do after having a bad day of eating? Do you do anything special to get back on track? I would love any advice any of you could give me. I seem to be having way to many of these days lately.
Thursday, December 17, 2009
I feel like such a bum. I have been sick for over a month now and I only made it to the gym once and that is when I started to feel a little better. Right before I got sicker. I have to say that this is the most inconvenient time to get sick for a month. The month leading up to Christmas is the craziest and I have just felt like laying around and doing nothing. Obviously I can't do that so it has been really hard trying to keep up with my normal life and Christmas.
I was pleasantly surprised when I got on the scale this morning. It said 179.8. I can't complain. That is a .4 loss and I certainly did not deserve it. I know I ate to many points several days. I guess it all evened itself out. I'm not sure how but I'm not complaining or stepping on the scale again to double check. :0)
My Week In Review:
1. Exercise: No - my lungs can't take it yet. I've been having enough trouble breathing during regular activities.
2. Water: Yes
3. Late night eating: No
4. Snacking: I ate some very unhealthy snacks this week.
5. Eating more fruits and veggies: No. I just haven't cared to.
What do I need to work on for next week:
This coming week is Christmas. I'm sure I won't be able to make it to the gym until after Christmas. Which really stinks.
My plan is to not eat everything in sight this year. It is going to be so hard. Fortunately I have a 1 year old that can't sit still and when we are at other peoples houses I have to constantly be chasing her around. It doesn't leave very much time for me to relax and eat. I am going to make healthy choices and I am going to post all of them (healthy and unhealthy) on "What Pudget Eats" so that you can all see what kind of choices I made. Make sure you go to "What Pudget Eats" and become a follower. This way you won't miss out on seeing how I do. That and it will keep me more accountable if I know you are all watching me. :)
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
It was so easy to make. I boiled the chicken and chopped it with my Tupperware Quick Chef. I love that thing. You throw the chicken in and spin it a few times and walla: The chicken is done.
Then you add these two ingredients to the chicken and a little salt and pepper.
I am feeling a little better today but unfortunately I still feel like crap and I am very tired. For some reason today I feel like I need to eat everything and anything. It is kind of weird because my stomach is a little upset from my antibiotic. Why can't I ever get the good kind of virus. The kind that makes you not want to eat. Just kidding. About the other kind of virus anyway. :)
Today I am determined to fight this urge. I started my day off with two pieces of light bread and two teaspoons of peanut butter. Then I had six Hershey Kisses while I was working with a help technician for a new computer program. For lunch I had cheese and pretzel twists. I love those pretzel twists. They taste good with anything. Now it is 4 pm and I haven't made any dinner. I guess I should start something because I know I will be hungry again very soon. I really want to eat the salad mix in my fridge but it just doesn't sound good.
I guess I didn't eat as much as I thought today. I ate a little to much cheese but on the up side I finished it off so now I can't eat anymore. I really am going to try my best to stay on track for the rest of the night. I am going to be very busy doing games tonight at my Church's Childrens program. It is there Christmas party tonight and am going to have them bobbing for marshmallows in hot chocolate. It is going to be so much fun.
I will let you know tomorrow on "What Pudget Eats" how I do the rest of the night. Wish me luck!
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Yesterday my doctor put me on a second antibiotic and if I don't start feeling better by tomorrow I need to get some chest x-rays done. I just want to get better fast. I want to enjoy Christmas.
As you can see (by clicking here) this cold is affecting what I am eating. Who wants to eat salad when they have a sore throat or anything healthy for that matter when you feel sick. I just don't have the energy to put into it right now. Hopefully in a few days I will have my energy back and my motivation to lose weight. In the mean time please don't think I have given up on my weight loss because I am binging on cupcakes.
Monday, December 14, 2009
When I was asked to review the TupperWave Stack Cooker Set by Tupperware I was a little skeptical on how I could use this product to make low fat food in the microwave. Let me just tell you that it is possible! This is a picture of chocolate diet soda cake that I made today in the Stack Cooker. Just mix a chocolate cake mix with a can of diet soda and then pour into the stack cooker and cook in the microwave for about 8-10 minutes. It turned out great and so easy! It is perfect for a quick dessert when you have company.
Friday, December 11, 2009
I had an ok week this week. I did try my best to stay on track but being sick and having sick children who can't sleep really takes a toll on you. Story of my life! You can see what I ate this week and where I struggled by following my blog, "What Pudget Eats".
When I got on the scale yesterday I weighed 180.2. That is a .8 gain. Honestly I'm not surprised. It's that time of the month and I overdid it with the midnight snacking more then once this week.
I'm going to the Doctors today because I have laryngitis and probably bronchitis. Hopefully I will get some medicine so that I can get back to feeling normal and sleeping again.
My Week In Review:
1. Exercise: Yes, I went to the gym once and did Jillian Micheals one time. I don't think I will be exercising again until I get rid of this cough. Right now I can barely talk without having a coughing fit.
2. Water: some days
3. Late night eating: Yes - see my blog "What Pudget Eats".
4. Snacking: I did eat healthy snacks most of the time. It's the bologna and cheese and midnight snacking that killed me this week.
5. Eating more fruits and veggies: Yes, I eat lots of veggies and watermelon.
What do I need to work on for next week:
Start feeling better. Then go to the gym and get lots of exercise in and maybe even some Jillian Micheals.
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
My eating wasn't to bad yesterday but the binging to keep myself awake the night before threw me over my points big time. I still have to post yesterday's eats on "What Pudget Eats". I will do that in a few minutes so you can all see how bad my binge actually was. :)
Well today is a new day. I am going to eat well and get some exercise in. I don't know about you but if I exercise in the morning I much more likely to eat well that day. I think that on those days I don't want to ruin my hard work. That and I feel better about myself when I exercise. When I am not feeling good about myself I tend to eat so much more.
I'm thinking about getting a new workout video. I think it's going to be a long winter so I would like to have a few back ups for when I can't leave the house. I have a Wii fit and I have seen that they have some workout videos for that. Maybe I will have to look into it a little more.
What is your favorite Workout Video? I think it would be wonderful to get a list together of all of our favorite videos. It would be very helpful to look at a list of good ones to choose from.
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
I'm sure you can figure out what I did to stay awake with her from about 10pm -3am. If you guess that I binged you are right. I don't know why I feel the need to do this when I am really tired. Does anyone else have this problem? Check out my new blog, "What Pudget Eats", later tonight to find out what I binged on.
Needless to say I didn't make it to the gym this morning. I was just way to tired this morning to get up early enough to pack my gym bag along with everything else I needed to pack. It was probably because I took prescription cough medicine at 3am because I couldn't stop coughing and then had to get up at 6:30am. It's a good thing I only took half the dose.
I ended up going for breakfast at Cracker Barrel this morning with my sister. We had a good time and for $5.99 my daughter and I had 3 eggs (I think I forgot to order the egg beaters :( ), two turkey sausage patties and two slices of wheat toast with jelly. I ate the majority. My daughter had about 1/3 of the eggs and a little toast. It was a great brunch. I think I ate more points then I should have so I will have to take it easy with dinner tonight.
Now I guess I have to do a little research to find out how many points I used already today. This isn't going to be an easy task.
Have a great day!!!
Monday, December 7, 2009
So every day be sure to check out what I ate and how I did. I hope you all enjoy seeing what I eat every day. I can't guarantee that it will be pretty but it will be truthful.
I mixed the shake mix with 1 Cup of Milk in my blender and then added 4or 5 ice cubes. When I opened the lid the shake smelled amazing. Just like coffee. I was a little skeptical at first about what a powder shake would taste like but when I took my first sip I was shocked. It was wonderful. It was one of those things that you can't stop drinking until it is gone. I think I may be craving these in the future. I really do need to place an order because these shakes are great and so are the herbal tea concentrates. Click here to read my review on them.
Emmett, who runs Herbalife Las Vegas also sent me the French Vanilla Healthy Meal Nutritional Shake mix. I can't wait to make this one and throw in some frozen fruit. I think it will be delish!
I have to say that I drank my shake about an hour and a half ago and I still feel really full. That is awesome! Especially since the mix only has 90 calories, 1 gram of fat and 3 grams of fiber. It is definitely a reasonable snack for me point wise. I hope it will help me to only eat one piece of pizza for dinner tonight. I am having a lazy day and decided to order pizza.
This is what the Herablife website says about the Healthy Meal Nutritional Shake Mix "Nutritional shakes that combine the benefits of personalized nutrition with convenience so you can enjoy healthy, delicious meals. Herbalife Formula 1 shakes listed here. Herbalife has developed the number one diet shake and is proven and trusted nearly 30 years. Herbalife shakes have 8 different flavors to choose from. Pick A Shake any Shake! Herbalife Shakes formulated by science. Herbalife Formula 1 shakes have been clinically proven to help loose weight! Herbalife Shakes are great for nutrition supplementaion.".
If you are interested in trying these shakes click here. Herbalife Las Vegas has 8 different flavors to choose from and you can either order them in the packets or in a big canister.
I had been craving bologna and cheese for a few days so my husband went to the grocery store during a snow storm to get me some. I told him not to because I couldn't eat it but he wouldn't take no for an answer. I think he was sabotaging me. Maybe not on purpose but he did. He doesn't realize that I am not like him. I can't just say no thank you when it is something I really want. I do much better if I don't buy it and it is not in my house. If I get stressed or haven't eaten in a while or both at the same time I stop caring about my weight loss and I just eat whatever I want. And once I start there is no stopping me. I figure, well I already ruined the day why not enjoy it. I know it is stupid but that is what I think.
Anyway, the bologna and cheese was awesome and my husband bought me some really good hot and sweet mustard to go with it. I ate more then my fair share and now I am done. I will not eat any more until Christmas day when my husbands parents bring us our favorite from the butcher shop near them.
Now you know one of my biggest weaknesses at this time of year. Bologna and Cheese! I'm sure you can guess another one of them. That's right! It's Christmas Cookies! Every year my Polish friend makes me the best cookies. She is so creative. She makes all kinds of different cookies. She usually makes pumpkin, peppermint, peanut butter, chocolate chip and so much more. I love it! The only problem is that this year I can't eat them all myself. I think I did that last year. My mom also made a ton of cookies for me. They are in her freezer and she is going to make me a tray before Christmas. I can't wait because she made mini black bottom cupcakes. Maybe it is better off that they stay in her freezer.
This time of year is so wonderful yet so hard. I really have to work on my willpower. I need to say no to all of the goodies. I really think I would be better if I didn't eat any of the goodies. My problem arises when I decide to just eat one. I will admit that I have a problem. I can't just eat one (pretty much this applies to everything). This is a really big problem. It really has more to do with my willpower. I am really going to work hard on this. I know once I get in the groove I will be ok. It is just taking that first step to get back on track and actually saying no to something. I am determined to do it.
What is your Biggest Weakness when it comes to food? How do you fight it?
Saturday, December 5, 2009
My Pot Roast turned out wonderful. If you like mushrooms you will love this recipe. I am very pleased with the results. If you missed my recipe for Creamy Crockpot Mushroom Pot Roast click here to check it out. I ended up using the soup liquid in the bottom of my crockpot and adding a little flour to make some yummy gravy. It was already semi-thick so I didn't have to add to much flour. It had amazing flavor.
I also made some baked garlic french fries to go with it. They were so good. I love garlic so I put a ton of garlic on. My husband and older daughter really liked them too. My baby threw them on the floor and said yuck. So the majority of us liked them. :)
It was a great dinner and right now I am feeling very stuffed. I didn't even eat all that you see on my plate. I couldn't finish the last slice of roast. I love when food experimenting turns out to be a success. It's so much fun playing in the kitchen!
- ingredients on hand -
I made up a new recipe with some items that I had around the house. It actually looks really good.
I call it Creamy Crockpot Mushroom Pot Roast. I had a roast that I pulled out of the freezer yesterday and I didn't have any of my usual ingredients. So I decided to create a new recipe with what I had on hand. Unfortunately I didn't have much to choose from. But I was able to find some cream of mushroom soup and a can of mushrooms. I love anything with mushrooms! I will post my recipe below and let you all know tonight how it turns out.
My daughter when she woke up this morning.
Creamy Crockpot Mushroom Pot Roast:
2 1/2 pound Eye of Round Roast (or any roast - I like eye of round b/c it is lean)
1 can of Healthy Request Cream of Mushroom Soup
1 8 oz can of pieces and stems of Mushrooms with liquid
1 teaspoon of onion powder
Place roasts in crockpot. Sprinkle, salt, pepper, seasoned salt and onion powder on top of the roast. Then pour soup on top of the roast and then mushrooms on top of the soup. Cook in crockpot on low for approx. 8 hours or low for approx. 4 hours.
Her hair was so funny I had to share!
This week’s recipes have just been released here. They look great! I am very excited about trying the Garlicky fries and maybe even the roasted cauliflower.
· Greek salad pitza
· Roasted cauliflower
· Garlicky fries
· Veggie couscous
· Citrus slaw
· Cream of mushroom soup
The most exciting part is that they are giving away a copy of the new book "Cook Yourself Thin FASTER". Click here for your chance to win.
I am so excited about this cookbook coming out. It looks like it is going to be great! If you click here you can also view more recipes from the authors of the books. The recipes I am going to be trying are Open Lasagna, Sloppy Joe's, and Toffee Bars. They all look so yummy!!!
Friday, December 4, 2009
We started out at 8:00 this morning and I got home around 5:00 tonight. I was exhausted and stuffed like a pig. We started our day out at Cracker Barrel where I had eggs, sausage, biscuits, ham and bacon. We shopped a little and then went for lunch at Red Lobster where I had shrimp bruchetta, Parrot Isle Coconut Shrimp, Walter's famous Shrimp and french fries. It was crazy! On the up side, we didn't have any snacks in between. :)
Then I got home and ate one and a half slices of cheese pizza and two Christmas cookies. What a day! I did have fun. I guess I just got caught up in the Christmas spirit and it felt good! The stomach ache - not so good.
Tomorrow's a new day. I have a big bag of salad mix in the fridge with my name on it and a lean roast to make for dinner along with maybe a baked potato and a veggie. It's gonna be another good day! I love Christmas!!!
Thursday, December 3, 2009
This week flew by so fast. Between a vendor show, sickness, Silpada parties, gymnastics it made for a crazy week. I tried to eat healthy but it didn't always happen. I did end up eating half a bag of Reece's Peanut Butter Cups the other night when I had to stay up with my daughter that has croup. It was the only way for me to stay awake and I was so tired at that point that I didn't care what I was eating.
When I weighed in this morning I was pleasantly surprised by what I saw. I am at 179.4. That is only a .6 loss but that is better then not losing anything. Especially with the week that I had. I'm happy to say I am still going in the right direction.
I really am going to try my best during this Holiday Season. It is so hard because I am spending almost every extra penny I have on presents for our family or our daughters. It really is a hard time of year financially. I love this time of year but I will be happy in January when I don't have to worry about money as much as I do right now. In the mean time I am trying to spend as little on food as possible. This means a lot of grilled cheese (2%) and tomato soup, or pretty much whatever I have on hand. I have a few roast in the freezer so I hope they can hold us off until the new year. It definitely makes losing weight a whole lot harder but I know it is still possible.
My Week In Review:
1. Exercise: No
2. Water: not really
3. Late night eating: Yes - peanut butter cups and my daughter felt the need to tell the Doctor about it. She is to funny sometimes.
4. Snacking: I didn't snack very much. I didn't have time. When I did I ate watermelon.
5. Eating more fruits and veggies: Yes. I found watermelons at Walmart for $2.50 a piece. They are wonderful.
What do I need to work on for next week:
I need to get back to the gym. I better have healthy kids next week.
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
I have also been sick with a head cold for about two weeks. The worst part is that I have asthma so I can't exercise until I get rid of this cough or most likely I will have an asthma attack and it wouldn't be pretty. I don't really have the energy anyway. This cold is really wiping me out. I am feeling better and I made plans to go to the gym tomorrow morning bright and early. I will let you know how it goes.
I have a Silpada Party tonight so I have to start getting things ready. I just wanted to let you all know that I am still alive and doing my best to get back on track. Why can't it be a little easier???