Wednesday, February 25, 2009
This is what I woke up to this morning. A big pile of wrappers from Hershey Kisses with Almonds. If you read my post last night you already know that I was having a binge night but I thought I had gotten past it when I ate a double fiber English muffin with peanut butter and then some Jillian Micheals 30 Day Shred and a shower. I had planned to paint my nails but I had to get the girls to bed and pack a lunch and dinner for my husband for today.
So I was feeling better when I went to bed. I took my Tylenol PM that I take every night to help me sleep and I went to bed around 11pm. I laid in bed until 12:59am and thought about food. How sad is this. I couldn't sleep because I was thinking about food. Seriously, who does this? It is kind of sick to think that I laid in bed for two hours fighting the urge to get up and eat. What is wrong with me? For about the last half hour I was thinking about the Hershey kisses with almonds that I had put in my husbands work bag on Sunday so that I didn't eat them. I was really hoping he left them in the bag instead of taking them out and leaving them at work.
Finally at 12:59am I looked at the clock. I decided that it was ridiculous for me to lay in bed any longer and not sleep. So I told myself that I will go down stairs an eat two pancakes with sugar free syrup and then go to bed. I went down stairs and ate 3 pancakes with sugar free syrup and then decided that I already ate to much so why not eat the Hershey kisses. So I dug through every pocket of my husbands work bag until I found them and this is what led to the picture above. Not a good night. Although, as soon as I ate the chocolate I went to bed and slept the rest of the night. It's crazy! I swear sometimes it feels like I sabotage myself. I did so good all week just to ruin it with one bad night. I hate it!